i wish i would be there with you NIKI!!!

my niks went out with her parents to shiridi ...... she left yesterday to there & donno y i was not interested in goinn to college ..so kans was absent on this day.. i was goin weird at the begining of the day but later i kept stabled with my heart... chudalanipinchindi ra niki ninu..... i was alone at imax through out the day...at each coner at every place over there i can find her memories with me...but soon i was well convinced by my lovely honey... mis u ra... parledu im fine niki... netho unna times natho eppudu untunai ra... nv na pakkana lenapudu untunai.. ur memories niki they play a crucial role with me.. they are my best buddies when you aren't next to me dear.. kept on talking to her on mobile chats... but sudenly donno what happened to me i was geting even more excited  to her cos tanu naku antha duram lo unna tanu nakosam untadi adi chalu ra... what else do this idiot need ...

next day shiridi: nikkiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii i wanna stay with you ra ... naku nehto undalani undi .. i mis your palms warmth . i need your hand to hold on.. miss you dear... this was what i felt on the beginning of the day later i fixed my self to other entertainments like counter strike at lan gaming, chess at sports room and cricket at the ground ... didnt attend any of the classes dis day..i got my mind totaly on the other things to go with...if at all i had been to class ill surely surely get down into deep depressions.. hahahahaha antha ledu le.. knchm kavalane taggincha... cos tooo much of love can kill a person .... soooo started to learn to face those times when she can't be with me.. and as i did,i succeeded to face those times...but my heart ever and ever says i wanna stay with you nikitha....at these times i can't stay with you but i could give only one thing staying away from you & thats my love .. and its for my life...

 TAKE CARE NIKI ...!!!love you................(deep inside my heart says) MISS YOU NIKITHA

13: chweeeeet voice

aavaridi anukuntunnara... ma vadina di... antey inka relation fix kaale kani nenu fix aipoya....naku na vadina munde telisina kuda nenu 1st time tana tho matladindi oct 5th... mast matlada telsa andi ...  antey jst wish chesa happy bday vadina ani .....:( .....anthey.... kani ma vadina voice aitey mast undi :) .... matladetappudu i was almst to call her vadina ani but i spoke out as "HAPPY BDAY VA!!! NITHISHA JI ".. hu hu hu :(((( god plzz give me a chance to call my relations..kanisam ma nithu vadinakaina na badha ardam cheyavaaa plzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

12: words of my mom!!!!

hmm mottaniki mom ki aitey telisindi na bujji dani gurunchi ........she asked abt nikitha anduku estam?, appatinunchi? , y did i made dat scar??????
 ee questions ki i dont have answers anduku estamo cheppaledu kani anta estamo cheppa, appatinunchi estamo cheppaledu kani appativarako cheppa(last heart beat)..... ee answers ki mom kept silent for a while naku full tension em antada ani!!!

em analedu.....
she said classmate kada ra nv life settle choskone pelli cheskovali mari tanu appativaraku untada nekosam okavela undaka potey appudu em chestav ? em aipotav nuvu??

ee questn ki nadaggara answer ledu ... these words of my mom made me think again and again... anipinchindi poi poi ah nikitha na classmate a avvala?and okavela tanaki nenu estame aitey i can make it naaa...  
tanaki nenu estamena ani adagala vadda? shall i ask nikitha or not? should i ????.... godddddd wat to do now???

11: mom gets nikans!!!

hmmm college annual day !!!..... had fun really it was great,cultural activities,friends everything was fine but something was disturbing me alot donno wat it was might be the feeling of mistake from "nikitha".... thought of speaking to her today... lunch time tanatho matladadam ani anukune loga vala sis entry "nithisha" OMG  how shld i speak to her now????? college valu arrange chesina lunch thu yeak  i cant go with it ..... we guys moved to nearest dhaba ekkadiki vachaka bujji call chesindi  headach pills unnaya ani ,,,,call chesindi avaru na bujji di enka nenu agutana? got some pills from medical shop and tanaki evvakunda avariko echanu tanaki evvamani ..... cos dat day i cant look into her eyes donno wat made me to feel so....dhaba lo kumminaka we guys got bak to college.... matladadam matladadam anukuney loga annual day prgm aipoindi buses were abt to move.....

i reached home at 9 in da eveng .... adey moodout lo undi nenu bed meda alaa padukunna, mom came to call me for dinner i said no i wont , antaina a mother can easily understand their children , nenu moody ga unnatlu she got me amaindi ra ani adigindi... said nothin ma jst got tired of driving such a long distance!!! appudu chusindi my N-shaped cut on left arm(adi nenu bujji nannu avoid chestunnapudu picchodilaga cheskunna thuuuu...) enkemundi she came to know about nikitha!!!! i jst said dat i have dis sort of feeling on her r8 now and if da same continues in future, i wont leave her ,i cant get away!!!

hmm appatinunchi mom is getin afraid abt wat wld happen to me!!! im sorry mom i cant get back my heart now!!!

10: for u princess ....

 i dont know why i loved YOU

might be because i need YOU

i dont know why my eyes search for YOU 

might be because my heart is with YOU

i dont know why i think about YOU

might be because my thoughts are with YOU

i dont know why i dream about YOU

might be because my life belongs to YOU

"YOU are everything for me"

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the way u see.... kills me!!!

the way you cherish ...chills me!!!

the way u move... melts me!!!

the way you talk... tils me!!!

DAMN!!!

thats y i wish you would be with ME!!!

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   i wanna see u always smiling 

cos its my willing 

you would be sad for never

cos ill be with you forever

i wont let you go

u r my hearts DISCO!!!

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For in your arms I have felt and seen,
a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe.
A safe haven in your arms just for me.
Now I give my heart to you.
For my heart believes in you 

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I kept my head up high,

and then you came my way.

I have been hurt so many times.

My heart filled with so much pain.

but now that pain has gone away.

For I have found a place where I want to be

09: TWIST in the TRACK

tanu chesedi tappa ani anukunapudu anto telekunda tanu naku duram avtunna feeling... ee blog tanaki 4th year lo chupisdam ani anukunna kani ah okka mata valla eppdey chupinchalsi vachindi ....  I NEED HER!!!.... i cant go away leaving my heart!!..... donno wat to do ....tried  make her understand wat i was for her ,...i need her in every minute, every second, every moment in my life....    
i know that she likes me but shez getting afraid for the things that could happen with parents...wen a person starts  liking someone then he must have the ability to get them for their life.... as i wished nikitha to be tried and tried & i left my fortune to god!!! tanaki ardam avali anukunna manaki estam unte parents tho peda pani em kadu ani ...chinna confidence mana lo create aina confidence parents ki kuda create chestey we can make it!!!parents ki eduru cheppi em sadistam cos manaki ee life echinde valu anta kastamaina tanu naku kavali, tana kosam aidaina sare, apudapudu anipistundi nenu distrb ai tanani disturb chestunana ani , kani tanu naku kavalanipistundi em cheyanu mari .... devudaaaaaaaa kasta help chey swamy plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

08: tappa?

KUNNU knw wat dis is the other name with which i call my heart as her mom does ....kunnu kunnu kunnu kunnu .... bagundi story baganey nadustundi ....... its fine!!!...... em aindo teledu suddenly der was a message from her asking that "am i doing any wrong speaking to you"... i dont know what actually it means. but for me it meant as a mind blasting words... donno what happened to me i was completely loosing my control........ wanted to knw what made her to ask me that ......naku tanu complete ga duram veltundi anipinchindi ... damn!!!... i asked her why she said like that... reply was "EMLE" and "ANDUKO ANIPINCHINDI ADIGANU "... kunnu em anukunnatunnav ra ....im afraid to loose u babe...